My New Journey of change and healthy habits.

This New Year, I expect it not to be like the last....

 Every year like everyone else. I promise myself that I will lose a certain amount of weight. Well, last year I did that very goal.  I lost the amount of weight I wanted. I reached 167.8 pounds. Two pounds away from being a weight I was feeling comfortable with, and was setting up my new goal to 155lbs. Yet, I got tired. I felt like I no longer wanted to "play this game" anymore. I wanted Cheeseburgers, with extra mushrooms and pepper jack cheese. I wanted Pizza with everything on it, plus stuffed crust. So slowly.. I started gaining weight.. Again. This all started in Aug.. I began my previous Journey in May. In Aug I completely gave it all up. It all went down hill, every day I gave a excuse. "I can get back there again.. I can do it. But today, I'll have that slice of pizza, plus spaghetti." Knowingly my pants felt tighter, my blouses were feeling higher.. I didn't "care." Now here I am, weighing at 185. Three pounds heavier than I started the last time... I am by far ashamed of myself. How easily I threw four agonizing months of strict eating, to pleasure. But here is what i discovered. 

Many of the diets that give you the advice of "detox" or healthy eating is, Just that. Advice. Last year, I went to extremes. I restricted everything. Dairy, Bread, Sugar. Certain grains, Fat's, Sodium. If it wasn't grown on a farm. I didn't eat it... I read about it everywhere. How dangerous it is to eat these combination of things. I listen to it, from specialists on T.V. If there was a program about eating healthy. I watched it. I was sleeping better, I was jogging so i had much more energy than before. The pounds falling off of me. Yet, I wasn't feeling happy. Why is that? Why was I feeling, more moody than before.. Why did I feel like the odd ball at birthday parties, and social events. Being offered, a piece of cake and saying. "No, thank you." Felt wrong?

I want to discover that very answer. I want to know. How I can lose this weight. Without feeling stressed out in calorie count, stressed out eating that piece of cake will go to my thighs. That pizza night can no longer be a family night in my house hold. So here is my New Year's Resolution. 

Losing the weight, without losing myself. I want you, to help me or maybe do this with me. I am willing to write down every few days at a time. On my progress and set backs. Some how maybe I can get a bigger common sense. From someone who isn't feeling, how i am feeling. 

So here is our goal. Going back to 167lbs. Staying at that weight. Then continuing to lose to my Ideal weight 155. Everyone talks about losing weight. Many do! They reach that goal (like myself). But what happens afterwards? To they regain? Are they able to lose more? Let us answer that!

Here is a picture of what i look now...

This was taken yesterday, January 2, 2014

I walked 2.8 miles, and had no Wheat or dairy. 

Let us begin! 

Blogging... and why?

Let me start with saying, How self centered of me with my title right? Ha. Well truth be told. I am looking for Betty. Which most of you know, thats me! Its my nickname for my very long name of Beatriz. In which a lot of people have trouble pronouncing it. I don't blame you, its not common of a name, and its written differently than i have seen many spell it before. So, with that being said. Here we go.

Why would i want to start a blog? Well, lets face it. I love to talk. A lot... to much in fact, that in my past it has gotten me into some trouble. My thoughts roam all over my head sometimes, and i have no where to place them or share them. So why not give this a try? Its now 11am here in sunny California, and i've been sitting here trying to put the "perfect" wallpaper and template to express myself. Yep.. this is as good as i got. *snickers* I want to seem vintage and full of wisdom... Yaahhhh i'm not. All i got is the little bits and pieces in my head in which i feel some need to share. Not everyone, specially in my family. Want to hear my constant revelations of life, because i can be a little naive and ditzy. I'm not the one to point a extensive detail, and i can be fairly ignorant on some subjects. Well, who isn't though. In the world we live in, i feel sometimes its a competition to who knows the most about anything and everything. Which is most of the time, unimportant and really time consuming. Ha, Yet here i am, writing about just that.

Well lets get to what matters then. Hm, where to start... I have so many things I want to talk about. Husbands, Marriage, having daughters, being a military wife (not really something i ever like talking about but i am one), weight loss, friendships, jobless, stay at home mom, and the list could go on. But for now I'll make this my small introduction. Hi, I'm Betty. I'm a gemini (if you like that sorta thing, i use to when i was a teen. It was fun and magical.) I have two little girls. I stay at home traditionally because the thought of they being raised by someone other than me or my mother scares me. I have high standards of other people but i sometimes lack on my own. I'm easy going, letting go of something is not hard for me to do. I get over people, problems and drama way to easy. Keeping a grudge is probably my weakest trait. I won't stay mad at people. I can, I just choose not to be, I like using my energy on something else. I love to laugh either at people or of people. Cat and dog videos really don't impress me much. I love to taste more than eat. If something tastes wonderfully, even though i am not hungry i'll eat it. Which is why i struggle or have struggled with my weight. I like to stay in my comfort, I love California. I am very patriotic of Mexico and of the United States. Tradition is a huge, factor in my life. Even though i was raised in the United States, I refuse to deny my Mexican cultural roots which came from my border town of Calexico. I think, thats enough... So there it is.. My first blog!